Saturday, February 27, 2010


Feb 27@ Mountain West Conference Indoor Track&Field Championship

I've been listening to a song called Apeman over and over again tonight
just like this photo the first second I like it, the second second I don't, the third second yes, the fourth second no......

I think I'm sophisticated
'Cos I'm living my life like a good homosapien
But all around me everybody's multiplying
Till they're walking round like flies man
So I'm no better than the animals sitting in their cages
in the zoo man
'Cos compared to the flowers and the birds and the trees

I've been so stressed-out these days
hope my scholarship applying process could end soon
spring break is right at the corner

Friday, February 26, 2010


keep a diary or keep a planner
10 years later, would you read things you've done or things you wanted to do?

I think I am homesick these days

photos from 5 years ago, I wanted to take a lot like these, but I ended up with those 4

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Mr. Grumble

This is the season of anger
I really feel these days I get angry very easily

The day before yesterday I got back from Minneapolis
today I feel the weather in Albuquerque is like summer
that makes me angry

This morning I went to the Metropolitan Court for no seat belt on in my car while waiting for a cop
I couldn't pass the security check because I have my cell phone with
I couldn't put in my vehicle because I biked there
I couldn't put in the locker they provide because I didn't have a quarter
Outside of the courthouse, there's a Mexican lady sitting there to keep people's cellphones, but she charges me a dollar
that makes me angry

UNM baseball practicing @Isotope Park

I think I used to say getting a good moment is like orgasm
But taking photos is to get good moments not just about getting good moments
Just like having sex is get orgasm not just about getting orgasm
I got really tired of hearing people at work and in class, talking about the assignments and using the term 'to get the moment'
Can you please think of something else to use, instead of this word 'moment'
I'm so tired of this
I know most of the photographs are just moments, they happened in less than a second
that makes me angry

I get tired of people telling me print journalism is dying
that makes me angry

I'm getting tired of checking airfares
I really miss my family, I haven't seen my parents more than two years
But why it costs me so much money to go back
that makes me angry

I remember I used to take photos of some suicide scenes by theatre major students and tricking other people that i was a crime scene photographer
I did worked as a crime scene photographer before but that was scary and nasty
I did enjoyed taking photos of the theatre scenes but those were not real
when I looked at the photographs I really want to throw them away
artificial light, artificial scenes, artificial setting, artificial costumes, artificial stories, artificial music,artificial dialogues, artificial face expressions......
that makes angry

Sometimes I feel good while watching people doing what they are doing
I'm an invisible man~~~~
Sitting in a theatre watching a rehearsal, the background music is Lady Gaga
Please save me God, I swear I don't want to hear this AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA anymore
that makes angry

a girl dancing at the rehearsal of the new coming show Dead Man Cell Phone @Theatre X

In this 21st century we have too much entertainment to satisfy us
We are forced to watch so many advertisements, that's more than enough
We have too much choices in clothing stores, in toy stores, in record stores, in movie stores, in restaurants……..
We spent too much money on communication, cell phone, mail, internet, cable
but we still don't think our communication is good

Do we have a lot of what we need
Are we still complaining

We are just so hard to satisfy
Designers keep on killing themselves
that makes me angry

In all
I really want to graduate soon
I don't care if it's a tiny apartment
I hope not
Although I enjoyed flying back and forth between albuquerque and minneapolis again and again
But it costs me a lot of money
that makes me angry

This afternoon, I realized that I get angry easily
On my way to McDonald, a guy gave me a flyer saying "Stress Relief"
"Only $30 for a complete private treatment"
I guess I should stop advertising
that makes me angry


No matter what
I really really need to get all my scholarship/grant applications done before March 1
Wish me good luck

Saturday, February 6, 2010

life is a vending machine

Oh boy, oh boy
UNM Lobos almost lost but they went overtime with San Diego State, and beat them at the end
That's the kind of game I want to see, not a team leading 20+ points in the first half, then they play boring in the second half.
Mr. Vander Galien told me he does not want to see his team tight with the other like that, because it's not safe.

Fine, I just care I can good shots or not now, I'm tired of this winning or losing

A vending machine provides snacks, beverages, lottery tickets, and other products to consumers without a cashier. (

you know what I mean, don't you

Thursday, February 4, 2010

It has been 22 years

the time I knocked on the door, Don was exercising on his trampoline

"It has been 22 years."
The time I walked in Don's apartment, he told me he has stayed here over 22 years. But at the end of February he has to move out because the owner decides to sell the property.

Don put his jacket and rainbow hat on, he said he feels more comfortable with the colorful hat

"This is my life. On the wall."
He pointed at the wall and told me.
The wall is full of postcards, photographs, paintings, bumper stickers...... and stuff that erotic

And I found this

a love letter to José

Howard Zinn's book "People's History of the United States" which is the one Don think every American should read

Don told me that he never eats cooked food, he said he spends a little more than $1,000 on food in a year

Don sitting in his tiny apartment, at the end of February, he has to take everything on this wall down and move to a new place, but he told me he's going to stay with one of his friends for a short period of time

on an assignment of shooting Don Schrader
maybe I will do a follow up story late this month